Inspired by Denali’s recent postings about successful artist tips, and the fact that I hadn’t drawn since the 2 week workathon on Jam Ja…ah..i mean the secret project, I have put my foot down and developed a strict drawing schedule from me.

My goal is to draw every day, like I used to, only more work drawing. This is how it will work…

Every weekday I will wake up at 5:30 and draw, because that is when I am in work-mode, and if I try to do work-drawing after work, it just won’t work! Of course. I will need your help in reinforcing this habit!

The deal is so: if I am a good girl and do my daily morning drawing, I get to take a nap after work. I will post proof of my deserved nap in my AIM away message (Wertle1 is my SN). If no proof exists, everyone who stumbles upon me between the times of 4:30 and whenever I go to Kempo or Tuesday Night Basketball is free to IM the crap out of me to wake me up (I promise I will leave the volume high).

I’ll be posting my work-sketches at ConceptArt.org. This will be boring stuff. Copies and figure and drapery studies. Oh GOD I hate drapery studies! Bleeeh! But yeah, I need it, then maybe I’ll play around with the daily sketch group? I know not.

Anyway, that’s that. Help me out if you can be enforcing my nap rule.


Scott came to Kempo tonight! And he enjoyed it! Hooray!

I don’t talk about Kempo much on here, do I? Possibly never, seeing as I didn’t even have a category set up for it.

I always intend to write a big long “about Kempo” post, but I never seem to have words for it. We will just leave it that it is important to me, possibly the most important. I started when I was 16 and I shall continue for many many years to come. Further explanation requires a high level of word crafting which I have not yet achieved, and possibly never will (I am not a word magician, like some of you others).

I am just excited that I am finally dragging some of my friends into this, so they can see for themselves what I can’t explain (though it will take a lengthy time of it). Brendan and Maria, you are next!

Insight 1

I figured out why I’m terrified of children.

They remind me of how I am incapable of taking care of myself. Well, part of myself, at least. It is like, I get nervous around children, because I think, “Oh God, what if one of them starts crying.”

Because you see, if a child started crying, I would be literally unable to react. I wouldn’t know what to do! I would look around awkwardly and shuffle my feet and possibly raise my hands in helplessness. People sometimes think I would be a natural at comforting children, but it is simply not the case. I do this to myself often, when the little neglected emotional child part of me starts crying.

Often, when I am troubled, I go nosing other people for comfort, because I do not know how to comfort myself, yes? Much like I would seek desparately for another adult to take care of the crying child, because I simply can’t do it. Not like “oh take care of this because I don’t want to deal with it,” but that I just can’t

It is a problem. But at least I know that my fear of children is only because of an association I make with myself. Somehow it doesn’t make me feel much better.

Summer Review

Lisa, you used to update so frequently, what happened?

Well, I guess I got in the mindset that I shouldn’t do journal entries until I got all my Japan photos up, but I don’t think that’s reasonable anymore. Hopefully I’ll get them all up before the new year. So, how bout an update?

My new job is very good. I enjoy what I do, and the people I work with and the environment I work in is very positive and supportive. It’s a good place for me to be right now, while I work on personal things, and I don’t think it’s an accident that I wound up here. For the moment I’m doing quite a bit of programming, which I never thought I would enjoy as much as I do.

This summer was wonderful. I spent most of it working with Will on his infamous “secret project,” through which I have learned quite a few new skills. No you can’t see it yet. It’s not done. No no, it’s not going to be one of those projects that gets abandoned as we get distracted and work on other things. It’d better not be, at least *threatening glare*

The downside of the summer was my mysterious illness I posted about awhile back. It turned out it was just a viral thing that had to be waited out afterall, but the doctor put me on steroids for the pain, which was almost just as bad as the pain itself. It also fell inconveniently during the end-o-summer 2 week Workathon on aforementioned secret project. That didn’t turn out so bad, though, because the steroids made my carpal tunnels all better, so I could draw a bunch and not be in pain. Also, Will made for a good nurse in the more unpleasant reactions to my medication (thanks for that).

The upside of the summer is that I have become obsessed with cooking. Brendan wants me to start a recipe blog, but I dunno. I have a lot of site work to do, and I don’t want to go starting up new journal notebooks when my main site is so far behind in the overhaul schedule. Either way, cooking real food is a blissful new hobby, and any recipe suggestions for me to try out are very welcome.

In other news, D Flo has a new internet thing going on that is super awesome. Thinking of how successful Brendan’s Anacrusis turned out, I suggested D Flo do a similar project with his music, like 1 minute compositions. Thus, Miscelletudes. Go and watch. LJ feed here . My own follow-up project to this is that I will pluck these little 1 minute songs and make little 1 minute animations to go along with them, as practice. I have to set a goal deadline to start on that project.

So, all in all, things are going well, and I am trying very much not to take that for granted.